shout out to my friend for picking the most inappropriate background music for her class project on alzheimer’s disease
“somebody that i used to know”
"You are flowers in my stomach.
Cutting me open nightly, blooming through the cracks of the ribs.
I only want to be the sun for you."
- Elke River
it might seem really trivial but the mere thought that this time next year I will only have a few months before I move out and off to start studying something I really am so fasciated by and will be living by myself is amazing - three years ago I’d lost the will to live and now I’m comfortable, confident, happy, have been lucky enough to have met some of the most amazing people and feel this thrill every day to be alive and have consciousness and strength to make impact and i have a long long way to go but the last few months i’ve realised just how far i’ve come and fuck it, i’m proud of myself
last night of english course tonight, last exam next tuesday morning and got my interview for the access to HE course on 6th June SO FREAKIN EXCITED
I’m considering Exeter for uni it’s in Devon and really near to some cool seaside towns like Totness and fairly handy for Cornwall (fucking Cornwall cmon! never been actually) aaand ahh their psychology undergraduate course looks amazing
I’ve read a few other Arthurian re-tellings that have focused on the female characters in the saga, but this one is certainly the best of them. It follows the canon (such as it is) fairly closely, incorporating almost all of the really iconic episodes from the King Arthur mythology, and I really enjoyed that. It’s nice to see creative interpretations of the stories–I’m a sucker for retold fairy tales in general–but I also appreciate it when new interpretations of old tales are still recognizable as the stories I love. Marion Zimmer Bradley succeeds admirably here.
Mists as a feminist work
The number one complaint about Mists seems to be that it’s feminist propaganda. Interestingly, I’m not certain that I really agree that it’s feminist at all. It’s definitely not quite up to modern standards of feminist thought, but it was helpful to me to remember as I read that Mists was first published in the year I was born, 1982. For a book that is almost 30 years old, I think it holds up remarkably well.
I suspect, however, that the primary reason Mists is seen as being “feminist” has less to do with the ideological content of the novel than it does with the fact that re-centering the King Arthur legend on the lives and experiences is of women is subversive in itself. Women are rare enough in fantasy fiction in general (especially in the early 80s) to make the book remarkable for its time, and it’s still sometimes seen as a radical departure from the norm to make women the focus of stories in such a testosterone- and patriarchy-fueled genre. The canon of Arthurian legend has grown in volume to near-Biblical proportions, and many people seem to reject any tampering with such an archetypal foundation of the genre as akin to blasphemy. As often as not, the descriptor “feminist,” when applied to The Mists of Avalon, is an epithet rather than praise.
Simply being a book about women does not a feminist classic (or propaganda piece) make, however, and there is a fair amount of toxicity in the relationships between the women of Mists. There is also a fair amount of women stressing out and feeling guilty, ashamed, and worthless for not having babies, not having enough babies, not being “good enough” mothers and wives, and so on. In a way, these interactions between women and the concerns over childbearing are reflective of experiences that real women have and can relate to, but at the same time it felt to me as if these experiences were shown as immutable and inevitable parts of female existence. The women of Mists are strong, complex characters, but I didn’t like the uncomfortable feeling I had throughout the book that the Maiden/Mother/Crone view of womanhood is just as limiting and harmful as the Madonna/Whore dichotomy.
One day I’m going to own a beautiful golden retriever or a blonde labradoodle and call him Eric and we will walk through all the forests ALL OF THEM I SAY
my hair’s more golden ginger than red and it really suits me I think I think I’m quite pretty tbh idc if you don’t agree c:
Every morning I have fabulous tumbling golden curls and by 11am it all falls flat, any tips on making them last longer without using too much heavy product?